Prairie Schooler witch

Here is the piece I stitched and finished for my partner in the PS group last month, oops, time flies by, it was in August. I am so delayed in posting my recent finishes and WIPs.
I loved that piece. I used a LE fabric from Silkweaver and my choice of overdyes, and the finishing was done using a piece of styrofoam and hand-dyed hemp string. It took me a whole evening to assemble it but I was very proud of the result.
In return, I received the most adorable little cube from Teresa D. with a PS owl. The cube is a real sweetie and a joy to look at! I`ll post a photo tomorrow, it is now too dark to get a good shot. Other than this, I am back to Warsaw after my > two Norwegian months and unhappy. Last week-end I travelled to attend my aunt's 70th birthday, she invited about 20 persons of family and closest friends for lunch+coffee to a nearby restaurant, the food was great, the atmosphere relaxing. I brought back Toska the cat queen, the 3h trip in train with her went very well.

When it comes to my WIPs: I just need to do about 6 squares (I think) on the afghan for H. I stopped working on it when I left Norway. I am now working on the French Alphabet Sampler - I finally received it, the store owner sent it to Poland despite swearing 1) she would remember to send to Norway back in July 2) that she did not send to Poland. She did. I am so upset by the way she handled this order. Also, when I asked for help thinking she could get another copy from the designer (because we assumed the one she had sent had got lost), she promised help but I never heard from her since. Beware if you ever plan to order this expensive sampler, make extra sure this is handled better than it went with me.
Thus, I won't able to finish it in time for H's 50th birthday in November. No way. It is 411x411, and I chose to do it 1 over 2 on a SW 40 ct. linen (Cameo is the color). It goes extremely slow.
If I had known, I wouldn't have ordered it this year. I'm trying very hard to work fast on it, so I am not stitching anything else.

You'll notice this post is unhappy, it just shows the way I feel recently. Everything is just plain wrong around, in all possible aspects in my life, and for the first time in my life, I just don't see a way out. Some things have gone too far, and I can't get help from anywhere, anyone. I feel terribly lonely these days. Most of the week I have sleep problems, oh well, hopefully one day this will solved somehow.

H.'s birthday is in 6 weeks, I still have no idea if I'll go, for money reasons. On the other hand, we'll maybe spend Christmas together away from the families this year.

You know. Families can be great. But sometimes they aren't. And today also brought an unexpected quarrel on the phone with my brother over the last family issue. I know I am oversensitive and I shouldn't feel guilty even when he tried to make me feel bad. But in the middle of that particular family problem, I am upset that instead of offering help and understanding, once again all he does it making it all so much, much worse for me. Okay, fine, I am so tired of all these conflicts that I took the plunge and made a decision: no, we won't go and visit them in Switzerland next month if we attend the concert in Zurich. At my age I am tired of feeling guilty all the time, I want to react and do things the way I feel they should be handled.

The only reason I am not deleting what I wrote, even it it sounds so upsetting, is that I want to remember this week and all last month.

I'll cross my own fingers for a better period... Sometimes I just don't feel for living, and knowing me and my optimistic nature, this is pretty serious LOL!